Outburst of Tears
After days of keeping all the things to myself, I finally cried out loud last night. I just couldn’t take it anymore when people around me are just assuming I am fine with doing most of the things. I am a capable person, but I need help too. I will feel tired too. I don’t say I’m tired doesn’t mean I am not tired. I am sometimes just too tired until I don’t know what to say anymore, I’d just not say a thing.
I’m not a crying baby, but I do cry easily in front of Andrew. I don’t think I cry that often, I normally cry when things aren’t going well and reach the maximum point that I could take it. But I cried twice for the past one week. I poured everything out onto Andrew last night.
The whole wedding thing, it doesn’t make me feel happier, instead it’s making me more stressful than ever. Yes, you could tell me every bride is stressed with her own wedding. But they do feel happy too. While I’m not. As the time goes, it just sucks all my happiness away. My colleagues have been saying that I look stressed… I have no appetite to eat… Good for diet though…
I want it to come faster, get it over and done with. On the other hand, I do not want it to come.
I need a mood boost now…… Shall I cut my hair???